Better Day

It's not a bad day, I have been calculating the finance for my household.  Where does the money go? Well I know some is getting saved for something other than bills.  If you add up what comes in per month and what should go out, and there is an excess; then you are suppose to be doing good.  Not, not were I live. Someone has been dupping us.  He is a straight up asshole.  No matter how I calculate and what I calculate it still comes up with an excess that I don't get to see.  Yes, it is time to move on. Hell what will I be missing.  Exactly! Need to spend the weekend looking at cheap hole in the walls to find one suffient enough for me and my baby.  Just have to jump right out there and do that. And soo today is a better day.

I prayed and I prayed

I prayed and I prayed and I prayed. It just doesn't work.  I ask for undrstanding, I ask for wisdow, I ask for knowlege.  I ask to get to know god and his son Jesus.  I just doesn't work.  how do I get god to listen to me?  I think I need to get someone else to speak for me.  I see that he listens to others, why not me. Well maybe I have to pay my dues before he will listen to me.  I love you Jesus I love you God please Love me back.